I realize my belly actually looks smaller in this picture, but that’s just gravity at work since I was laying on my back (which I can’t do for more than about 30 seconds…ouch!) This week marked the beginning of my house arrest until babies get here. On Monday when I saw our perinatologist my cervix had actually grown back to 3.3 cm long! You may be thinking “Ok, cool,” but this is actually amazing news. Both the peri and my regular ob said that they’ve never seen a cervix go from 2.1cm all the way back to 3.3cm. Thank you thank you for your prayers! We really felt them this weekend and were very calm and trusted that everything would be ok the whole time I was in the hospital. As we learned last week, things can change very quickly and we have no guarantees of anything, but it does give me hope that I could actually carry these kiddos all the way to 34 weeks as long as I follow dr’s orders and stay off my feet as much as possible. My official bedrest orders allow me to get up to go to the bathroom, take a 10 minute shower, and heat up some lunch in the microwave if I need to. Other than that, I’m to stay either propped up in bed or laying down on my side. I’m also taking medication to keep contractions down since they’re what causes the cervix to shorten. At this stage with triplets my dr’s have said that there’s no way to completely eliminate contractions—my uterus is just so strained that they’re going to happen no matter what. So far they’ve gone down to only 3 or 4 an hour instead of 6-10 like I was experiencing at the end of last week.
So, what’s bedrest like? The days have actually gone by much faster than I expected, thanks to many visits from friends and our moms. And free cable (don’t call Time Warner on us). I think I’ve now seen every episode ever made of “Say Yes to the Dress”—seriously, they play like 10 episodes a day—and “A Baby Story” on TLC. If I want to catch their “Making Room for Multiples” show I have to be up by 8:30 though. (: The first couple days were more difficult because my contractions were still coming fairly often, which was not only uncomfortable but made me worried I’d have to go back to the hospital. To try to get them to slow down I would lay on my side, but my belly is so big these days that after just a few minutes of laying down I’m really uncomfortable and my hips hurt like crazy. Thankfully, the last couple of days the contractions have gone down and I’ve been able to stay propped up instead. I’m also so so glad for that because I can actually do things on my computer while I’m propped up and its almost impossible while laying on my side.
The most difficult part of bedrest for me is that I just can’t do anything around the house to get ready for the babies. I feel like I’ve really missed out on the whole nesting stage that most women get to enjoy during their pregnancies. I never thought about it as being an important stage to go through, but I think its a huge step to be able to feel like you’re somewhat prepared for taking care of your baby(ies) in your home. So many things have been moved around in our house and we’ve received so many gifts that are being put away in the nursery and I have no idea where anything is or a concept of what we have and what we still need and its driving me crazy. I’m someone who needs to actually do things for myself rather than just hear about it from someone else. Our moms have been so wonderful and helpful in getting things done, I really don’t know what we’d do without them, but I wish I could be the one to do these things. It makes me feel like I won’t be ready to take care of my babies when they come home. I also really just want to straighten up and organize and even just dust or wipe down the counters. Sigh…pity party over. I have very much to be thankful for and its worth it to deal with a little frustration to have three healthy babies. This stage will be over so soon!
I’ll be seeing my perinatologist once a week now so each week will be a waiting game to see how the ol’ cervix is holding up. Our little adventure this weekend was the first time that I even really considered that the babies might come as early as the next week or two. We’re obviously hoping not and things are looking good, but its always a possibility, and one that completely boggles my mind. I’ve done so much reading and research and mental preparation for having them here in our house, but when it comes down to it I just can’t imagine what it will really be like. I can’t wait to meet them (yes I can, stay in there) but the thought of them being here in the world in as little as a couple of weeks is pretty terrifying in so many ways. I just want them to be healthy and not have any serious issues. Its very likely that they’ll spend at least some time in the NICU and I feel about as mentally and emotionally prepared for that as I can be. Breastfeeding is the main source of my anxiety when I think about the first few months of their lives. I feel very strongly about it and want to do it so badly, but its going to be so difficult. My confidence is wavering as we get closer to the reality of having three babies and I continue to hear stories of women who struggled so much trying to breastfeed just one baby. I hope I’m up to the challenge. I don’t want to give up on it.
This coming Tuesday is our big 28 week milestone. The survival rate for babies born at 28 weeks is at 96% and the risk for serious long-term disabilities is much much lower than if they were to be born before 28 weeks. We want to get them to at least 32 because every extra day they spend inside is going to make them so much stronger, but it will be a small bit of relief hitting 28.